I’m looking for people who are going through something. But not just anything. Something significant. A shift.
Because I’m going through a shift and I need to talk about it.
And my therapist retires in two weeks.
And honestly, she was only available for an hour a week, so really, how helpful was she going to be?
But I’m going through a major shift because TMS is changing my brain.
Let’s kill suicide.
Let’s kill all of it. Or at least as much as we can.
I have recently found major relief from chronic and near constant intrusive suicidal thoughts. But I will still have thoughts. And I will still have urges.
So I still wouldn’t go into certain situations where a certain prompt, a certain look, a certain song, a certain feeling, a certain slight could trigger an urge.
I have lots of plans in place. But plans have to be discussed. And figured out. And negotiated as circumstances change.
And negotiated in anticipation of circumstances changing.
Let’s kill suicide by talking about how to handle it when the thoughts and mages and urges rise up. Since we know they will.
We can have this conversation. It’s just about life. And how to live it.
It’s just about how to live life.
Let’s just talk about how to live life.
So we can live life.
Happy Friday Eve.
🤎 🤎 🤎
d (and bella)
@justinthebishop @_leopfeifer #amazing
“One Day You’ll Go Blind,” directed by Leo Pfeifer, tells the story of Justin Bishop, a lifelong skateboarder who went blind at the age of twenty-five but refused to abandon the sport he loved.
New Yorker Article Blind Skateboarder’s Return to the Ramp
Journaling is a great way to self-manage your mental and physical health, improve cognition and boost creativity. It’s also really satisfying. And PositivePsychology came up with 83 Actual Benefits!!
Here are some links to websites that help you figure out the best approach for your needs. There are so many ways to journal. And you don’t have to be a writer. You might just want to make lists. You might like bullet lists. You might prefer calendars. Personally, I keep a daily journal using DayViewer.
I also journal in greater detail by event. For that, I tend to use MicroSoft OneNote. I like OneNote because it automatically updates while you’re adding to it throughout your meeting, event or day. I use OneNote on both PC and Mac. I use it on PC for work and on Mac for other stuff.
Check out Bullet Journal and Journal Buddies. Both very cool. And completely different!
In case you’re overwhelmed by the thought of a journal or intimidated by the thought of writing, good news! You don’t have to produce anything amazing. My journals are made up of phrases and lists and words and curse words and exclamation points and doodles and quotes and, quite often, the word DUH. Although sometimes I type it this way: D.U.H.
More on journaling later. In the meantime, think about yours!
Or at least put journaling on your list!
With bullets!
xoxo, dee
